Four sessions held in May, 2013
This package includes audio of all four sessions held in May 2013.
2013-05-06 ~ 80 minutes
We always have a powerful time in Sebastopol. Eloheim does short one-on-one sessions with participants. The May session began with a fascinating exploration of fascination.
2013-05-08 ~ 87 minutes
The study of familiar suffering contained in this session has been so helpful for me. I found myself right back in my favorite familiar suffering – disappointment – yesterday and realized I needed to re-listen to Eloheim explain how to shift that energy. Vital information for navigating out deepest habits.
Guardians: (There were technical mishaps for 20 minutes) So how did you handle the technical difficulties? Were you in “how it should be” or were you in “what is now?” What were you contributing? Practice emanating your truth regardless of what is happening, the gift of your truth – not anxiety, worry, fretting, habits. Let your real truth show up. You never know how things are going to go, so drop preconceived notions. Allow yourself to experience now, as it is. You can center yourself immediately by feeling the bottoms of your feet.
Visionaries: Focus, as a microscope does: Go from blur into clarity, from chaos into detail, from the din of background noise into a crisp awareness. We are at a place where having “preferences” is not so interesting anymore. You no longer need this tool because you’re now in “it’s all me.” Make all situations your first choice. You still need to set boundaries, but don’t dismiss what is happening. Getting entrenched in preferences can get you into rigidity and into resistance. See the bigger picture of you and your soul”s creation. If it’s in your life, roll with it. This isn’t “go with the flow”. It’s saying: “if it’s here, it’s me”. Then discover WHY it’s there, even if it”s just a compare you-to-you moment.
Eloheim: Disappointment is tied to your unique familiar suffering. You get triggered, throw up your hands, and then go to disappointment. But what if familiar suffering and disappointment weren’t options anymore? What do you do with the urge to go there? You can go to your truth. You go to short factual, statements. You take small steps towards what you want. Step-by-step is very important in these changing dynamics, as your physical body changes, and as time changes. It is how you will navigate. Ask: “what is the smallest step I can take to move out of the desire for familiar suffering?” And enjoy each step.
Be aware of your unique familiar suffering. Find your big, bad bogyman. For example, “I’m not enough” or “I’ll go to anger first.” Be aware of the specifics – don”t lump it all in one container. (You can use the notebook tool) Familiar suffering and disappointment are like emergency brakes. The reward is that, when you put the brake on, you don”t have to deal with the challenge of the new, of uncertainty. You all engage your brains in ways that park you. If you have insight, you say “yes, but…” as if what you”re getting isn’t good enough, or just because you”re thinking too much. Disappointment won”t disappear entirely, but what neighborhood are you hanging out in? Are you parked in the neighborhood of familiar suffering? Would you wish your child or pets to be stuck there? Would anyone want to join you there?
Instead, go to “yes, AND…” Honor what is present and add to it. Roll with it. Saying “yes, and…” will steer you away from familiar suffering. Explore what else is there; explore what is new. Stay away from stories and just be willing to be open and vulnerable. Allow revelation. And then be comfortable with the fact that you can”t prove, document, or reproduce the validity of what you experience.
This isn’t about “going with the flow” which is about wandering aimlessly. “Rolling with it” is about taking acting with awareness, intention and boundaries. But be aware that free will is changing for you. It is no longer important for you to assert things. Instead it’s about being real with what is true in the moment and allowing IT to inform you. It”s dropping past opinions and allowing the current version of you relate to the moment: “What do you have to show me about me? Tell me about me.” Be comfortable with uncertainty, see with new eyes, and allow the moment to open in front of you. Break the mold of familiar suffering by knowledge (what is true now), fascination, and taking that smallest step.
2013-05-22 ~ 77 minutes
Guardians: Be aware of the bottoms of your feet and your back and bottom on the chair. Touch and bend at your hips. Come into the present moment. Any answers or questions that you’ve brought, set them aside for now. Be here, period.
Visionaries: In spite of any craziness you feel, your trajectory feels good to us. Continue to be aware of where you park in your favorite familiar suffering. This has been a deep, unconscious pattern for so long, and it is still asking for your emotional attention. But it is not unconscious any more, and now you’ve got this big hole in your life where you used to stick everything. So we asked last time: what do you do instead? That was a big request, to face the deepest habits you have. When you notice it, the temptation is to go into “I suck.” Instead, take small steps, even if small steps feel too powerless in the overwhelm you naturally feel. But we assure you that, even if you feel like a mess, your trajectory is solid.
Eloheim: State your favorite familiar suffering out loud. Because it is such a deep pattern, it has the energy of a secret. It comes from the depth of you and it has accumulated over so much time that it has a moldy energetic. When you are parked there, it’s icky, but then you don’t have to take risks. Your familiar suffering is part of your soul-list of things you want to deal with, and you’ve had a tendency in the past to re-queue the hard things on the list. But now you have the ability to face the hard thing, to take that risk. It is time to refuse to believe that your familiar suffering will keep you safe.
But when you attempt to leave familiar suffering, don’t just go across the street to another parking lot of fear or “I suck.” Imagine these two parking lots, with a road in between heading up and out. Be on the road. It’s not easy because habit will keep asking you to park. But the road is new and it will give you something. What’s on the other side of familiar suffering is uncertainty but also infinite possibilities. Being on the road is experiencing, “It’s all me.”
As with any repetitive behavior you wish to break, you have to catch it in order to change it. To keep moving on the road, keep checking in with yourself and use the tools: the notebook tool, step-by-step, what is true now, short factual statements, I’m tempted to. Yes, and. You choose what’s going to be your dominant experience in each moment.
Fred: (Gestured being at the end of the road and inviting to us to come up). We LIVE in infinite possibilities; there is no assumption of limitation here, and the unknown is not scary. Join us. Cut the anchor to familiar suffering. Cut the chain. Your familiar suffering zaps your enthusiasm for life, so let it go. Do you want to continue to have the survival instinct be your dominant experience? There’s a lot more to BE than just be afraid! Instead, you can hang out with, “I don’t really know, but I’m OK with that.” You can magnetize. You can act on your “yes.”
The Girls: Be gentle and patient with yourself in this process. You are changing something that you had figured out a way of drawing comfort from, so be tender with yourself as you make that change. Familiar suffering convinced you that IT was comfort. But it was just habit. True comfort is knowing your truth regardless of the circumstances you find yourself in. Let your consciousness and your truth now be your comfort, even if your truth is “I don’t know.”
Warrior: A slave suffers, and that suffering becomes their whole life, with only little joys here and there. The slave eventually forgets that there is another option and, if they are suddenly set free, feel frightened and uncertain. To deal with the fear and uncertainty, they look for a new authority figure or a new suffering. You are also slaves – to your familiar suffering. As you shift this, it’s normal to feel afraid, but it’s also important to not look for more suffering. Make the choice to live free.
Matriarch: Each one of the Council presents different facets of this important message. Find the one that resonates most with you, and let it sink in. Know that you are admired, loved, appreciated. You are unique in your own beautiful specialness. You are known, seen, heard. All of your desires, dreams, work, growth – all of that is witnessed and cherished. You are supported – with a whole crowd of souls cheering you on. You can join that crowd and cheer yourself for the amazing thing you’re doing. Appreciate the offering you’re making as a human, which is making a conduit for your soul to experience earth in all its glory.
2013-05-26 ~ 69 minutes
Eloheim gave a powerful introductory talk about static and how the generation of static is holding us back. Eloheim defines static as,
Unconscious reactions and thoughts; coping mechanisms, masks, lies, baggage, dishonesty, hiding from your authentic expression or the completeness of you; anything that interrupts your ability to stay in the authentic truth of the moment. The mind, the survival instinct, the body, and fear all generate static to keep you small.
Static includes all the reasons you have sold yourself on which you use to avoid presenting the truth of you to the world. It will crop up more intensely as you start to recognize the greatness and the vastness of your true self.
During this talk they expand on how static is affecting us right now. Eloheim went on to answer questions submitted by the audience.