October 7, 2018

October 7, 2018
Money and Awareness

The other day Veronica had the aha that the way Body and Awareness are showing up for her really comes down to relationships. Being present with others without feeling the need for protection. Being able to sink deeply into Presence in companionship and connection with another person feels completely different to her.

The insight was that you have been overlooking all that was your soul. This is the connection to your soul. Being present with your physical objects is a completely different relationship than taking them for granted. As you experience the relationship while honoring the fact that your soul is expressing as these things, you are in relationship to your soul in a new way. It’s a deepening of relationships.

The truth is, your relationship to a physical object should be as valuable to you as to your relationship to a gingerbread shape. The desk is your soul expressing. That’s a weird idea. Awareness knows that each relationship has something to offer. Honor the experience of interacting with your soul, and engage with that part of your soul in the way that you do. You can value your experience in new ways and honor the fact that you have this going on. This may feel like a notion and not like truth, and that’s okay. It’s true, and something to explore. That’s the step we’re on. That relationship.

How are you relating to the part of your soul that’s showing up as your desk? Most of the time, you’re not. How do you do it? The same way you did to get into Awareness. Being present is the best place to start. Acknowledge that this desk has my soul in it. I am willing to be present with that. Be willing to have an opportunity for a breakthrough.

Eloheim introduced special guest Darcy for this meeting. She shared her recent experience with a new business she is opening. She talked about how she is navigating the experience and that she is feeling Personality become louder as it becomes more physical. She wonders how to use new tools instead of the old tools in the process.

The difference between Personality and Awareness is in sharp relief. It’s now time for a look at the Survival Instinct in conjunction with the money piece, that voice of the Survival Instinct saying “you’ve gotta….” Money and the “you’ve gottas.” That you’ve got to earn, to pay, to save. That urge that is answered by Personality. Now that Awareness is on board, the you’ve-gotta’s voice is dislodged. It’s uncomfortable and weird, feels unhealthy and unsolveable, and it’s bouncing around like a pinball in a small pinball machine. The result of that tension is you’re left feeling stuck. We have to upgrade the “you’ve gottas” into the Awareness version.

How do we do that? Well, it’s not like accessing a vending machine. It’s the Field of Infinite Possibilities, the largest warehouse you’ve ever imagined. Everything is there. Part of the problem is that you think you know what you need, and only Personality has given you that shopping list. What we want you to feel into is that the times that Personality says the specific thing you have to have is sort of rare. Some food, rent, gas. But it’s not the extreme exchange Personality has always wanted it to be. That is an important difference and infrequently emphasized.

For example, you can say, “I gotta gotta pay the rent on the first [of the month] and I’m afraid I won’t have enough.” Reasonable. The power here is to recognize that’s the only expensive and loud variable I have right now. And it’s noisy and super easy to rile you up. If you’re honest with yourself, it’s not that much of your day in that gotta-gotta place. It’s not happening as often, it’s just happening from a place of extreme influence.

As Personality becomes less popular, how does Awareness navigate the things that feel immovable, like paying the rent?

Here Darcy expressed a great deal of emotion, saying she didn’t know how to move forward using Awareness around this topic and she feels pressured to do the business to make money.

Darcy doesn’t need the money right away, and that’s key. That’s Personality pushing her faster than is comfortable or necessary. Veronica had a similar situation going on and what she came up with and found extremely useful to answer P with is, there may be a month when that is true, but it is not this month.

Money is higher on the list to be looked at now, just like every other authority figure in your life. We’ve worked on many other things and now money is coming up for its turn to be healed. It’s an authority in your life and very tied to your Survival Instinct. It is in the way. It is time for this to be different, and you’re ready for it, to face it, for the relationship to be healed and transformed. At the end of the day, money doesn’t get to be in between you and your evolution. More things are percolating up as the Body piece gets to be activated! There’s a list, and this is the next thing.

What does Awareness and Body do with “gotta gotta gotta?” Pay attention to the relationships, the value you have with the gingerbread shape and the value you have with the Kleenex box. Money is just a place holder for exchange. It helps you even out exchanges. It helps relationships, it helps transform a physical form of one thing to another. Money supports transfiguration. Money is magic. It turns one thing into another thing. Ta da!

Money is at least part of the physicalization of the Field of Infinite Possibilities. So if money is magic, and money is the physicalization of the FIP, money stops being the problem and starts being the conduit. When you don’t have hangups about it, money stops being a problem and starts acting differently in your life. Typically, you guys default to Personality around money and probably not so often or solely in many other ways. We have to come up with a change in neural pathways so that when you’re thinking about money, you’re not using Personality to do it. Then the FIP, the clarity, will be the way you navigate it. We want you to discover how that will work for you when you get Personality out of the way.

So Darcy, you are catching it, you just haven’t had a way to consider it in a way that gives you the opportunity to see it from Awareness instead. We hear you saying having and making money is really about freedom. Freedom equated with money is a block between you and ascension. They don’t have to go together. If you have an equal sign between what more money would give you, we have to take that apart. That urge that you feel money would answer-take that urge and require yourself to find a way the urge is expressed that is not equal to money. If you make that equal sign thick and deep, it makes it harder to get out of it. You have to figure out how to get that thing without having more money, even if in a smaller dose. It gives you a baby version of it. You just need to feel it. Once you feel it, the FIP activates.

Freedom and money do not have to go together. It is not an equal sign you have to build. Identify the equal signs that have been generated by the financial situations you have found yourself in, rather than letting them dance with Personality and control you. Let yourself see how you can be in Awareness around what you are really dealing with. It’s finding the doorway into Awareness and deepening the relationship to the magic of money. And you don’t let Personality tell you how to do that. Get into Awareness and see what you discover.

Money is such a big energetic topic but it’s really a small thing in scope. Money is inherently small and narrow, generic, because it’s meant to be exchangeable for anything. Money is paper, an idea. You all agree on the value of that piece of paper, it’s a decision. So make a new decision. Money is magic. Money is transfiguration. Imagine if anytime you spent money you thought, “money is magic, this is me turning blank into blank.” We’re using words to straighten out the energetics. It’s time for money to do what it’s supposed to do. It’s a magical conduit inside the FIP allowing for transfiguration.

In response to Darcy’s next comments, Eloheim said you have to navigate that not everyone is going to be on your team. When you’re expressing yourself we know that affects your Personality, but what does your Awareness have to say on this topic? Awareness will tweak or shift things in those moments instead of saying you suck, give up. Ask, how am I allowing myself to evolve, to express myself? Hear and don’t believe what P says. Personality says mean things as you try out new things. Personality doesn’t encourage you, it’s a detractor not a teammate, which is unfortunate. Thank goodness we’re getting Awareness on board. You’re setting boundaries on that inner voice. You know there’s another way to do this, so push through.

It’s time. Now it’s time to look at money. Money is just a weird piece of paper in between you and another experience. It is a magical conduit of transfiguration, not a sign of evil or control. The Awareness version is a magical conduit of transformation inside the FIP. It’s not a notion or just a word game. We’re using words to straighten out the energetics so that money can do what it’s supposed to do. Money is a magical conduit of transformation in the Field of Infinite Possibilities. Use this to create new neural pathways around money.

October 10, 2018

October 10, 2018
Sneaky Blocks and Using The Awareness Evaluator

The subtlety of the way Body and Awareness interact is getting really loud now. One of the ways this is happening for Veronica is that one day she felt very unsettled and she couldn’t find an external reason. Because your bodies have “tasted” Awareness, your Body is uncomfortable with slipping out of Awareness. It’s an internal experience. The Body is not having as much of an Awareness experience as it wants and has experienced and it’s uncomfortable. This is something to become aware of, and the remedy is to be as present as possible. Watch if you drift into Personality when you don’t notice. Remember, don’t think, recommit to falling back on Presence.

Body and Awareness are showing up together in the world in subtle and unusual ways so keep your eye for what those might look like. Don’t forget the Big B-Body includes the gingerbread shape as well so you might have unexpected ways your body experiences things.

This journey of evolution that you are on is one where there is nothing between you and your evolution for the first time ever. Because this is new for you, you are not aware when a block shows up. The obvious archetypes between you and your evolution are not your issues. However, there is still stuff there. In Veronica, we found one. There is a sense of wishing for proof that her path is valid, wishing people would recognise that this is good stuff, as evidenced by the size of the community or the number of books sold, a sense that the crowd tells me my value. Though much of that is healed, there’s still a lingering chunk that needs to be looked at. The external indicates, comforts, or values the internal. The subtlety of it is very similar to her Core Emotion.

What your version of that is, we don’t know, but we suspect you may have something tucked in that is also showing up to be this wedge between you and honoring or recognizing your evolved state.

We aren’t saying do it alone, community is important. What we are feeling is that you all have one thing that signifies to you that you are evolving. It’s a marker, the evidence, the medals that show others your evolution. Someone might have that thought that the evidence is the medal or the marker of your progress, your journey. It’s subtle. Remember, you’re still the same person without those awards, the medal does not make the person. That’s not what we need. It’s living in Awareness without blocks between you and your evolution, with Personality stripped away.

We have to focus on the ways Personality sneaks back in that are less obvious. It’s so ingrained that you don’t notice when it sneaks back in. Personality has unreasonable expectations and cracks the whip on you guys with its desire for outcomes and chasing answers within the limitations it sets. So go down and in, in the present. It’s all now. It’s all fractal. Go down and in, it’s not the obvious direction! It is not “over there.” It was never over there, it’s just this now. Hang in Awareness and catch Personality. Sometimes it helps to say, “this is what IS, and my Personality wants to do X.” Go down and in, then see what comes up. We’re still talking about Personality here and it’s showing up differently than it used to.

Relationships seem to be the overarching idea of connecting Awareness and Body. Prioritizing gingerbread to gingerbread has been the norm, however, you can value the relationship with your carpet, for example, differently. And that’s a step. Pay attention.

Money is the common thing with which most people on the planet interact. It’s a relationship and a method of transfiguration. Feel the fact that you turn your efforts (a job, an artistic endeavor) into money, which turn into food or electricity, for example. What you’re doing is transfiguring subatomic particles. Awareness experiences it as transfiguration. So, shut up Personality!

We’re building a muscle. We’ve done it before. It’s all within your purview when Body and Awareness are in alignment.

We’re breaking down the ways in which you are rigid. Preconceived notions, triggers, authority figures, limitations, Personality. Subatomic particles, i.e., the Field of Infinite Possibilities is not abracadabra, though from the outside, it might look “harry potter-ish.” You’re totally present, and something changes, an opportunity arises. That’s abracadabra because it happens right away. It’s a response, it’s you allowing what is present to rise up, to be uncovered.

The steps: Presence, presence, presence, shut up Personality! Presence, presence, presence, notice. Experience and explore. Presence, presence, presence, notice. And don’t think!

As long as you notice when Personality is present, you don’t have to notice Awareness, but sometimes it helps some people to notice Awareness. As long as you have clarity when you’re in the two states.

The group had a lively and humorous discussion about the connections between driving cars, the CE, using Personality, and being in Awareness. Personality says it should be different than it is! Awareness is being present, nonresistant, nonlimiting, and actually experiencing and exploring what is occurring. It’s a relationship you have to the now. The resistance to what-is is Personality. Driving seems to bring out the Personality in you! Driving is moving through the marketplace. Ask yourself, how much Awareness can I be on my next car trip?

Cars transport you through the landscape. Your body is being propelled through the space. It’s teleportation of your body-that’s an Awareness evaluator of driving. How does Awareness evaluate your carpet? It’s a reunion with your soul. With money? Transfiguration. If you start letting your Awareness evaluate everyday things with this new perspective, it’s going to be more “kid on Christmas morning” and feel more magical. Personality is jaded and grumpy. What if, instead, we use the “I don’t know” tool? If you notice that you really don’t know how things work and realize you should not be jaded and instead are delighted, your life is going to feel richer, textured, like you are actually living it, and not like it’s ordinary but like Disneyland, like wow! You only don’t feel that way because Personality has taken it all for granted and put it in a box of “understood” things. You are constantly surrounded by things you don’t understand. Instead, be delighted with these things and never have them taken for granted. Water comes out of the faucet, how does it get there? It’s cold or hot! It keeps coming out! Fantastic! Be delighted, not jaded. That box that I-don’t-have-to-be-delighted-by is huge, and all the things in it are put there by Personality. “I don’t know anything” is freedom. My Personality doesn’t know, therefore I’m in Awareness. How fun is that?! You’re not in limitation, now you’re in the Field of Infinite Possibilities with an everyday thing. Wouldn’t it be more fun to live like that??

So, here we’ve identified a block between you and your evolutionary state. It is the fact that “I don’t know” has been used to keep you in Personality rather than freeing you to be in Awareness.

October 21, 2018

Fight Feel Focus

We have notes today.

You gotta fight. What that means is that you’ve got to fight for Awareness. Some of you might not like that word fight. Use something else if you need to. Fight for Awareness. This phrase got Veronica’s attention for many reasons. She had been feeling like she was continually getting hit and feeling retraumatized by things over the past little while, things that she felt she had already dealt with. That hold on accessing Awareness got dislodged, and she got lost in that swamp. That word “fight” empowered her.

Fight. What does that look like? That looks like a zero tolerance policy for Personality-based responses. The fight makes it consistent. It’s not just setting down obsessive thinking, it’s fighting back. Find your strength.

The second word is feel. When Personality-based thoughts pop up that want attention, say no. Then feel. Interact with the physical with a lot of attention. Actually notice the texture of what you are doing. Feel what the body is experiencing in every tactile sensation that you experience. Whenever a step feels too big, break it down by paying attention to every single bit of touch. Savor it, slow down.

Focus. Once in that place of actually experiencing the physicality, stay in that place. Focus on each step of the way. You notice each step and it feels very real to you. It keeps you in Awareness and deepens your experience of Awareness. If you find yourself slipping, fight, then feel and focus.

One of the things that came out of this conversation about fight, feel, focus is that you imagine you bend or shape the external world according to your needs or desires. Instantaneous manifestion. Well, Veronica has always wondered who is it bending to, and how does that work? How do I know if it’s my unhealed Personality saying shape the world or it’s some more healed part of me? Reasonable conundrum.

Right now, the entirety of any experience, knowledge, or relationship with any physical object has been, and is still restricted to, what the unhealed aspect of your Personality has allowed you to experience. It’s extremely limited. That’s all you know. Period. We agree that your physical world is ready for a change. The question is how? You’ve never actually physically explored any object in its entirety for it to show you all it has to offer. You alter your internal journey which liberates your physical world to show you more of what it always has been showing but you have never noticed. You get into Awareness first, then engage with the physicality of your world. Get into Awareness first, then let the Awareness state reveal physical objects and relationships so that you can have the Awareness relationship to that object. You’re trying to allow All That IS to show you its full potential by engaging with Awareness first, then exploring and experiencing your physical world. Any ideas about physicality that you have have only been what Personality has allowed you to have for millennia. Your history affects, shapes you, but it doesn’t dictate who you are.

We’ve been training you to want this transformation, this evolution of the species from Homo sapiens to Homo spiritus. You’ve got to WANT that. You’ve got to refuse to engage with this now from a Personality stance. My desire for evolution is going to push me to say NO. Now is the time for all those muscles we’ve been building up for 16 years to be used to say NO.

You’re leading the charge for the evolution of the species and no one knows you’re doing it. You’ve been like the green leaves. Do you want to be the flower? You get to the point where you’re confronting the SI in a serious way, saying, you don’t get to tell me how things are. You say, I’m gonna do something else. We’re not capitulating to it. We’re not feeding the beast in an attempt to quiet it down. We acknowledge it. And there’s more. That. is. not. all. that. there. is. That’s not all there is. Fight. Feel. Focus.

All That Is, the Field of Infinite Possibilities is your playground. That’s you. Yes, you’ve had trauma, drama, fear and pain, loss, disappointment, discouragement. Yes. And the SI will use all of that and more to weave a net that holds you to the ground. That’s when you have metamorphisis rather than capitulation, and you squeeze between the ropes of the net and you fly. Not because you didn’t have those problems, but because it is your birthright. Each of you have those muscles you’ve built up, use them. Fight, feel, focus.

We can’t tell you what your personal metamorphosis looks like. You don’t want anything between you and your evolution. It’s an inside job all the way. No one does it for you. You decide to fight. You decide to feel. You decide to focus. You move into HS with nothing between you and the fact that you did it.

The rest of the meeting was a discussion between Eloheim and the group. Topics included feeling untethered in a place between Personality and Awareness, feelings, Personality’s torpedoes, and the unhealed Personality template and having boundaries for it.

Pick Awareness and fight for it. Go do that and let us know how it feels.

Thanks to Anja who made the graphic summarizing Eloheim’s teachings from this call. It was SUCH a powerful session!

October 24, 2018

Full Council

Guardians: Let’s see what the energy is like now that you have had your catch-up talk. There’s evidence of the deeper hurt, there’s a bruise, but it’s not where you need to be. You never know where evolution is going to take anybody. That’s part of the joy of this community. You can start with someone who is traumatized and as that person is healed, freed, – the liberated version of that person, well, you can’t guess what that’s going to look like. The fun of this work is that we are not here to shape you, we are here to free you. We’re hear to say here’s another strap that has been holding you down, here’s another strap that you didn’t notice. The Council’s job is to free you, inspire you, to cajole you into knowing there’s more. We offer you freedom from previous limitations, where you are restrained, and tips and tools and tricks to smooth the way to you stepping into the greater version of you.

And because we attempting together to facilitate the evolution of the human species, we are dedicated to showing you every strap, every place where you have not noticed you are limited. Because of your dedication, the Personality is fired up to try and hold that line. We’re working diligently together to not let P take over.

Visionaries: Vision. Gotta have the vision. What do we mean by that? When you approach your day, your life, hold the vision of that potential for that to be an Awareness experience. Don’t let your vision slip away from you. It’s here, it’s yours. Don’t let it go. Don’t let it be taken over by Personality, the unhealed aspect of the Personality. Be vigilant for the unhealed aspects of the Personality. That’s the one we will not surrender to, that you do not want to let have dominion over you. Because Personality is very wily, it must fight with you on this. It must come up with more and more ways to throw up in your face. P knows the buttons to push to keep you engaged. You have to be stronger, you have these muscles already. Choose and choose and choose. Use the tools. Be tenacious. You know Awareness is in there, don’t convince yourself it’s not there. You know when you’re in Awareness, and you know when you’re not. You’re not lying to yourself when you’re not. Don’t pretend. Our next milestone is Awareness as the default.

Eloheim: So we’ve had the G’s and the V’s telling it like it is.

Veronica was practicing noticing the tiniest slips into Personality and pulling herself back and how the brightness changed in each state. In Personality, things were dimmer and then much brighter in Awareness. It’s just one way she’s noticed the difference between P and A.

The Survival Instinct knows every single thing it can use, that Personality can use. Where do we end up as we climb this tall mountain of evolution? Why are we here? To recognize that the navigation of 3D plus time is just an echo of the potential. What happens when that echo is not the limitation that you live in? When we really dig deep, we can’t convince you, we don’t have any brass ring to point you toward. All we can do is light a fire in you. I want something I can tell exists, but it’s not tangible. It’s an internal transformation that facilitates you transforming this planet in a way that hasn’t been transformed before. It used to much more obvious in the past, and now we’re in this time and the motivation is something else.

For Veronica, it’s very clear that she can feel inside her as she navigates her day that she’s bumping up into falsehoods and limitations, a force field of sorts. It doesn’t matter what it is, what it’s seen as, it’s more how can I shift inside so this situation isn’t the limitation it feels like? It feels like a challenge to solve rather than a force field to bump off of. That’s Veronica’s motivation.

You have to push the envelope of what you experience as you engage with what-is, instead of bouncing hard back into Personality. You have to check the facts and find the key that opens the door to Awareness.

What is going on right now with you, what are you paying attention to? Are you fighting for this now?

Girls: it feels like it’s been a little while. Yeah, you guys are in something so cool right now, and you don’t really know. You go along with Eloheim, but you don’t know. For us, it’s so exciting because we get to watch you.

Back in the day, you guys came into the meetings with an agenda – I need help with blank – and now there’s a sense of being agenda-less, and we want to celebrate this. That’s huge! There’s this fun feeling for us. It’s being with the grown ups! You are pushing the frontier but you aren’t asking for any promises or wanting anything like a guru in front of you. You went from being in a relationship with Eloheim for years, and you slid into this relationship of collaboration in such a smooth way. It shows us how ready you were to step out in front. You’re not being led, you’re being companioned. It’s really, really different, and we want you to celebrate that even if you didn’t notice. And you did it without fanfare. It’s an important step on the journey. You’re in community yet you’re doing it independently.

When you rub against the sense of limitation, that edge, you agree that that is not your limitation. Say, no thank you, you are not the edge of me anymore. When you rub against something that feels scary, hard, challenging, say you are not my edge, I don’t end here. This is not the edge of me. And then don’t bounce off it. Have the guts to stand there energetically and see if you can find Awareness while you hold there. See what happens.

Fred: Bodies. So you have a body. It looks like a gingerbread man cookie. Why do we say this? Just to mess with you a bit. You take it all so seriously. Why don’t you have a tail?? Or more ears or eyes? You guys got robbed! (laughter) So glad Eloheim is in charge of all that. We’re like that crazy uncle that buys inappropriate gifts.

Subatomic particles. One of these days you guys are going to have an experience with subatomic particles (SAP). When you start having that experience, the SAP are re-configuring live, that’s the Magic Eye puzzle on steroids. It’s going to be another extreme version with what you’re doing with Awareness. Practice not bouncing too far into P, you’re less likely to bounce far like you’re super tempted to if you practice. Go, wow! oh, and hold. I knew this was going to happen someday. It has and my only job is to be present in response. Personality is strong and wants to run off with you. Awareness feels comfortable and a relief. When you get into the SAP journey, we suspect it’s going to be “holy shit” and then the claws of the Personality sinking in. You’re in training now. SAP, then holy moly, claws of the Personality, return to Awareness, then hold as your nervous system processes what occurred. You’re in practice mode right now so you can get into the SAP aspect. It’s a natural result of being in Awareness. You’re in Awareness, you’re in Awareness, and flop, you’re in SAP. You have the foundation and the tools. We’ve taken those tools and kept upgrading them for this new experience.

Warrior: You can be fierce about this. That’s not my edge! You are not the edge of me! Engage with a sense of empowerment. Use that Warrior energy. Fight for each now. Fight each time you find an edge, for your birthright. That’s not where I end. That’s not all I am. You will feel a discomfort when you push yourself over an edge. But you know that’s not it, that’s not the edge of you. It doesn’t dictate who you are. You are not the edge of me and I refuse to bounce off of that perceived edge into the pit. I will stand close and ooze over it even if it feels hard. If it feels stretchy and like an edge, that is where the growing happens. Like a tree, on the edge is where the growing happens.

We bet you do this edge thing enough, you’ll run out of edges. It takes Personality’s ammunition away. You strip and strip and strip the edges away, and pretty soon, all Personality has is nothing. The Field of Infinite Possibilities is unadulterated, and that IS subatomic particles. You have all the ammunition. This is how you take away its power.

Do that. It’s time. And you’re on your way to letting Fred have his day.

Matriarch: We feel fortunate to witness that combination of teachings. We strongly suggest that you replay this idea, this meeting. They’ve given you the steps. We embrace you heart to heart as you become what we’ve always known what you were. Much love to you.

September 2, 2018

Appreciation and Gratitude

A special, in-person visitor joined the on-line meeting with Veronica and Eloheim, adding her perspective, insights, and humor to the occasion, along with helping to move the teachings forward.

Eloheim: We have been discovering new ways the Body and the Awareness interact and looking at the potential that represents. For Veronica, it looks like the physical world shaping itself around her presence. The piece that’s been missing or was ready to be enjoyed or explored pops up and fills in the picture. That void is not being filled by Personality’s bs, it’s being filled by an expression of Body and Awareness combined. That’s very different than abracadabra or vending machine. If you try to decide how it needs to look for you, you’re going to activate Personality. Be aware that you don’t unconsciously activate Personality.

So, you acknowledge the void, notice it, and step back from it. Be present in the acknowledgment, be willing to be in “I don’t know.” That’s Awareness. Here I am. And I don’t know. You say, I am present, and then see what clarity arises. I am not going to chase an answer.

What happens when Veronica is in Awareness is that she just feels happy. Others may feel appreciation, gratitude. The physical objects in your life don’t change, but your relationship to them does. “It’s all me” becomes an intense feeling of gratitude and appreciation because you’re seeing with new eyes or hearing with new ears.

The question arises, if “it’s all me,” why is it that we communicate solely with your gingerbread shape and not with your desk, for example?

Because the other things in your world, like your desk, don’t speak English. Maybe the universal translator is gratitude. It’s important not to expect the communication to be in English. It sounds like access to the “it’s all me” feelings could be gratitude, and appreciation is the translator. If you appreciate something so deeply that your experience of it changes, that’s a doorway to Awareness.

We wonder if appreciation and presence, how they [have a] very symbiotic relationship. In the sense of when I’m more present, I notice more. When I notice more and I’m more present, I’m in Awareness. When I’m in Awareness and noticing, I’m in gratitude. When I’m in Awareness and more present and noticing and in gratitude, “it’s all me.” Then the “watch it move” is experiencing the reconnection of the soul.

Things have been kept separate by Personality. We know “it’s all me,” but Personality keeps it separate, what “me” is. We’ve always had the feeling that the Field of Infinite Possibilities was your playground, and we could never understand why you guys don’t know that or experience it that way. We don’t know how to make you do this because you guys have the body. Now we see that Personality has been the decider.

Personality has been the judge, the jury, the defense, the prosecution, and the gallery in the courtroom. Personality intervenes and dictates in many ways. If Awareness has a say, things start to change. Personality can’t be the arbitrator of what counts.

We have been asked over the years how to get in touch with your guides and higher self. Well, maybe it’s not like Veronica’s experience, maybe it’s through the objects in your world. Just don’t expect the communication to be in English. Appreciation and gratitude seems to be the doorway.

So, Body and Awareness interact. Then, it’s a noticing of the void and what’s missing, and what goes in concert with it. See what’s around the edges of that void and see if you can have a different energetic around them. Use the Mad Scientist tool around those edges. What can you have a different relationship with around that void?

If you put heat under water, it’s going to boil. Because we’re connecting into Awareness, it becomes a “must occur” time, action must occur like boiling must happen to water over constant heat. Personality can’t be the power in that. You guys are going to be in a position where you are going to feel like we have felt, of holding that clarity. You’re going to be standing in the position to feel like we have felt all these years. You guys are going to be the professor, holding the place of this IS. It’s interesting to us to feel into that milestone. And, it frees us up to do something else.

The spiritual progress you make is the spiritual progress YOU make. There’s no teacher in between you and that progress. No one did it for you. You don’t feel the need to owe someone something or have to pay them back at the end. We’ll be on the sidelines clapping, as if at a sporting event, but YOU did it. No question in your mind that you did it. There’s no deity, no authority figure, no sensei, no one between you and your progress and no indebtedness for it. When you get there, you will realize why we have made this such an important idea, that of no indebtedness to anyone for your progress. You’ll feel the burden of the debt you had of other lifetimes of incurring that debt, of indebtedness to family to produce heirs or take over the family business, to patriotism obligation, to racism, to the roles you have had to play in society. All these roles have been breaking down, and you’re able to concentrate on something else.

No longer is it “I am this rigid-definition-of-self,” it has become simply “I am.” And now that has become Awareness and it’s all me. It’s a cool phase to be in.

September 12, 2018

September 12, 2018

Of late we have been focused on the shift from Personality to Awareness-forward life, Levels 7/8/9, and it is happening. It has resulted in many extraordinary experiences for Veronica, this walking through life with a different perspective not based on any outside source. We’re getting similar feedback from others.

Your gingerbread shape is what you have always called “you,” and the Kleenex box analogy of yore is what we called everything else else, when, in truth, everything around you is YOU incarnating. The opportunity now is to reconnect and evolve your relationship to your soul when it’s not showing up just as you expected. The physical world is your soul incarnated. The legitimacy is the same. Those are not just notions now.

The tricky bit is the potential for preconceived notions to dictate your experience. You’re constantly being filtered down by the Personality, fueled by the Survival Instinct. Your Personality has said, “that’s all you get.” If it were someone else, you would push back on that! It’s time to push back on Personality, and that’s been our work. The aperture that you have let yourself to see through (as if through a camera lens), however much your Personality has allowed you to see or experience, that’s been your whole life. Open up the aperture. There’s more to see and experience. Every single thing you encounter allows you to open that aperture.

Your external circumstances don’t determine your internal experience.

How does this relate to escaping the time stream? Time stops being linear and starts being experiential. You go deeper rather noticing a milestone of time passing.

For example, the ottoman is a much a part of your soul as your gingerbread self. You’re embracing the truth of that. Don’t think about that. Just say, wow, cool! Let it sink in. It’s a reunion with yourself. It’s all the same subatomic particles. Your gingerbread shape is not any more special than the subatomic particles in the shape of the ottoman. It’s all subatomic particles making up everything you encounter and are as much you as your gingerbread shape. None are more important than others. We see you as a collection, a sea of subatomic particles that just happens to coalesce into your gingerbread man shape, and as a habit, that’s all you ask for and your society reinforces because that’s all it knows. And who’s in charge of that habit? Personality.

Be open, be ready for more, and things, physically, start changing. You, as a Personality, are preferring one form of the subatomic particles over another-food or money as opposed to an ottoman-and that limits the aperture. Be careful that you don’t translate or equate the things you perceive with your wider aperture into what you already “know,” into the one way you have previously experienced. Your internal change opens doorways, you don’t open doorways so you can change.

You can’t buy evolution, and you don’t have to spend for it, either. Money has been inserted into the dynamic by the Personality and the Survival Instinct, and then those subatomic particles have been prioritized way past where it actually is valid. We don’t want money to be in between you and evolution. It still is a factor, but it needs to be in the right spot.

The thing we want for you more than anything else, the whole entire time, is freedom. Freedom from the oppression of the Personality, freedom from the limitation of believing that you end at your skin. Freedom to say, here are some subatomic particles, and now they’re grapes. And when that ability is present, will you actually need the grapes? Will you need to synthesize tangibility from the intangible or will you just say, the correct amount of nutrition is in my body?

The collective consciousness is a factor as well, but at some point you rise above it and are not as affected by it as you were. You set down the Personality and the collective consciousness and experience Awareness as a default pattern.

A question came from someone online about the doubt they had about being in Awareness. It was answered with an encouragement to count every little thing you wonder about as Awareness and to use the four steps. Underneath the surface, Personality is saying, “stop before you don’t need me anymore.” It will use whatever it can to pull you back when you get a taste of Awareness. You all are doing it this time without a sensei, a guru, or authority figure. It’s all you this time. Keep on going, keep doing what you’re doing. Notice Awareness, acknowledge Awareness.

In the beginning, we imagined you would incarnate into density and duality, in a free will zone, and once you had, you would seek a return to your whole state. With your culture with your body, with love or not, in poverty, illness, joys, and sorrows , lifetime after lifetime, you would return to this siren song that you hear deeply within you that says, there’s a way to be that I have not been. You would make time to prioritize that others think is odd, be the fringe over and over again. That you would choose and choose again to be here and do this, to continue to return back to this gossamer thread of maybe is extraordinary. And now here we are, talking about the notion that the ottoman and the grapes are the same as your physical body.

September 16, 2018

September 16, 2018
A Steady State

Currently we’re feeling into the doorway of the Body-Awareness piece. This is a priority we have to solidify by using examples and reminders. We’re solidifying that base camp as we connect into the big B-Body. As we push into that, the opportunity is for you to encounter new and old things with Awareness as your prevalent stance. This is the highest priority until that gets to be the steady state.

Asking for feedback from the group, Eloheim want to know where we are in the process. What is your assessment of the percentage of Awareness present or not fully engulfed by Personality? Seventy percent seemed to be the answer for most, or more often than not. This percentage will only get higher as you continue to focus on Awareness.

For Veronica, it is no longer a mechanical process. She experiences her day, and if Personality flares up, it’s so loud and obvious, it’s uncomfortable. Though not always a graceful navigation, she catches it and moves back into the Awareness state.

Be present and make sure not to chase down the realities that pass through your life, in a sense that life could have followed a potential path (a near accident, for example) but didn’t, Eloheim cautioned. For example, Veronica nearly hit a deer with her car. She could have followed that adrenaline rush by imagining what could have been the outcome if she had hit the deer. She didn’t choose to wander there.

While in Awareness, an optimistic wonder and feeling her body more in space-or proprioception*-is what Veronica is feeling a lot of the time these days.

(*Proprioception is the sense of the relative position of neighbouring parts of the body and strength of effort being employed in movement.)

The longer you stay connected to Awareness, the more often you are in Awareness, the more often all potentials exist simultaneously. We’re talking potentials here, not solutions. Being in Awareness holds the Field of Infinite Possibilities to you, and your resonance as you’re in Awareness matches energy with the potential you end up experiencing. We’re looking for a permanent state of Awareness, regardless of what occurs, not looking to match up with the best potential. Awareness begets Awareness is what Veronica is experiencing.

Eloheim and the group then spent the remainder of the meeting asking and answering questions and talking about their experiences with Awareness. Topics included marking time with consciousness Awareness experiences, being immersed in the Field of Infinite Possibilities, and setting boundaries with the Personality.

September 26, 2018

Underneath It All

Guardians: How is the energy tonight? It’s… tumultuous. There’s a big energy of transformation, a rumbling underneath and not just here, it’s worldwide as well. It creates a feeling of not quite settled so don’t go back looking for a previous settled time. Instead embrace and engage with the present tumultuous feeling rather than avoid it. You can’t have change without change. You can’t have Awareness if you want to run back to Personality as you engage with this now.

Be careful you don’t use Personality to navigate an Awareness experience. Ride the wave of transformation that you’re in. Be really careful about that. Awareness can feel nebulous, you may not be able to viscerally feel when you’re in Awareness, but you can feel when it is Personality. Recognize when you are in Personality. Anything out of Personality is a win at this point.

Visionaries: What is the vision we have for you? It is not going to benefit you to speculate or imagine or project what we’re talking about. These words are designed to wake up your connection to your Awareness. The vision is for you to encounter each now with the clarity, with ascertaining the flavor of that now. With your Awareness, allow the now to inform you of what it has to offer.

Personality has a very narrow scope, but when you come from Awareness into the now, it’s more of a 360 degree experience. Affirm, I will have this now from what it IS rather than telling this now what it is. This now shows you what it has to offer. It’s very powerful and a different way to go into the world. Who are you actually engaging when you do this? You are engaging your soul and exploring your infinite nature.

Eloheim: Happy Anniversary! We’re celebrating 16 years of Veronica’s channeling of us. Sweet sixteen! It’s been quite a journey. For us, it’s very powerful and we feel like we’re over the tipping point. You know what Awareness is and you’re committed to staying in it.

What’s a highlight for you guys? We’d like to hear your memories. Some suggested memories were: the emergence of the Council, the missing time meeting, the earthquake meeting, the different (nonphysical) visitors, the Warrior stories, the retreats, the paper bag meeting, the straw experiment, the Core Emotion sessions, the evolution of the content of the meetings from problem solving to potentials, and Eloheim yelling and cussing a lot more in the early days as a tool to shake us and wake us up from our Personality.

We appreciate all of you on this journey and it’s just starting to get juicy. We’re going into something radically new.
A little homework here: How does the Core Emotion fit in with the Body/Personality/Awareness dynamic? Your unhealed CE is constantly seeking something in ways that are not healthy and are very limited. When you’re in your healed CE you’re actually getting what your UCE is seeking. When the healed CE is activated, it feels like connecting to Awareness. How does your healed CE engage with Awareness? See how they go together. See if when you’re in Awareness, can you feel your healed CE is active? Ask yourself, when I’m in Awareness, how does my healed CE feel in this Awareness place? Maybe feel into a new description, a re-languaging of your healed CE. See what are your least favorite memories and most favorite memories when you’re in Awareness, see if they’re different than when in your UCE and where they overlap.

Warrior: (The Warrior had a very long, intricate discussion with the group during their part of the meeting which precluded the rest of the Council.)

Keep on walking your journey. It’s not over and not time to diverge. You are doing something precious. The value may not always be visible at the beginning of the journey but the value and opportunity is there even though you can’t see it. Don’t apply Personality stuff to this. Perseverance is the key. We want you to be encouraged, but we’re going to trust you no longer need the whip cracked on you these days.

The entirety of you, as an incarnated being in all the forms, is present as this planet. It is the reality of you, the big version of YOU. You are all of those things simultaneously experiencing each aspect of your soul presenting.

You encounter yourself presenting as that tree or whatever, and it is not the exact same one as others experience. Because it’s YOU you are experiencing. It’s going to become more viscerally true for you. That’s going to wake up in you more and more as you start to own “my experience of that tree is my soul presenting.” My soul interacting with my physical body. It’s a unique experience the that no one else is involved in or experiences the same. It’s a reunion with your soul. It’s time to let go of the belief that the gingerbread shape is all you have, and you have so little dominion over it and that’s all you get. (Yes, Eloheim, we know that’s how you had to do it!) You don’t even have a glimmer of the magnificence of your soul! You have no clue!

Referring back to the classic Pin the Tail on the Donkey analogy we shared years ago ….Personality says you’re not playing the game like you’ve always done it, like you’re supposed to play it. Awareness says no, I’m not wearing that blindfold and not spinning around until I’m dizzy anymore or hopping over all these hazards, I’m doing it differently now.

Eventually you won’t see things as a third party anymore. And we can tell this doesn’t sink in yet. We get it. Your gingerbread man shape is your comfortable form yet the carpet is an opportunity to engage with another form, an alien form of you.

The Warrior and John explored the idea that you are ensouled by perhaps 180 “widgets” of soul out of a million and moved into discussing how the spark of your soul is existing in those subatomic particles and that you’re reuniting and engaging with it.

The spark of your soul is in the carpet, you’re engaging with it. Let it be what it is, it’s a notion until it’s not. Underneath it are the subatomic particles. The spark of your soul is underneath the subatomic particles, which means it’s in all things. The literal foundation of reality is the same for all things. Which means “it’s all you” is not just in your gingerbread shape.

At the core of the entire universe, it is all One. Underneath it all IS, animated by the IS. All That IS is not a hard concept for you guys. It has to be all the same at the bottom line.

You’re all having a collaborative, simultaneous experience but your experience is unique, like the facets on a diamond.

You do not know what happens when you engage the spark of your soul that is the carpet. And neither do we. That’s why you’re here. When you do have that “boing!” of connecting the spark of your soul that exists as a carpet right now, it will happen like dominoes for the rest of it. You will no longer be the humans that have occupied this planet for millennia. That will be absolute unequivocal evidence of an evolutionary step. So, you don’t push or force or engage with Homo sapiens, just be present and grateful with that spark you are engaging with. Let it be what it is. Let the truth of it be. Let it be your reality. Make a sentence with a period. Just let it be your reality without judging or letting your Personality take over. Any thinking is Personality. Any not thinking is Awareness.

*Note: The Warrior section was deep, expansive, and full of important information. It was too much and too deep for me to put it all in writing here (unless I transcribed the entire thing!). For a better understanding of what they spoke about, you need to listen to this meeting, likely more than once.

August 5, 2018

Blurring the Line

We’ve been working for awhile on the Awareness teaching and getting on the same page. It’s seems like most are finding some connection to Awareness. The four steps previously described are not exact, they are general categories of progression that people seem to go through as they go from Personality to Awareness and returning to Awareness when they fall out of it. That doesn’t mean that each and every one of you have the exact same experience.

It’s about being present to the Now rather than being in the past or the future. It’s really the “This is My First Choice” or “What is True Now” tool come home to roost. It’s where you’re focusing very clearly on the current moment and acknowledging a new perception of the physical form and how it experiences the world, as well as acknowledging that fact you are in Awareness. Keep in mind that preconceived notions can block you from noticing you are actually in Awareness. Awareness has always been present, it’s just not always been dominant. Notice how it’s different, and be fascinated by the fact you are experiencing something different than you have up until now. You cannot know what Awareness will be like if you are asking Personality to tell you.

Have you been using the four steps and how has your experience been with it? “I realized that once I let go of preconceived notions, I was in Awareness much more often than I thought I was,” noted Julie. Perfect. Let go of preconceived notions, and also, try really hard not to imagine limitations.

We’re looking for the Body-Awareness dynamic being your dominant experience as you walk in this world. For years we said, projected, suspected, described the idea of the Body and the Awareness collaboration being experienced in physical form on planet Earth as It’s All Me and Watch It Move. It’s All Me is experienced internally, and the gingerbread experience of the Big B Body of Watch It Move parallels. You align and move, you bloom. Level 7 & 8 will be experienced side by side. The key is to stay in Awareness more often by doing the four steps.

You’ve dumped Personality, you’ve kept Body, and you’re emphasizing Awareness.

But I don’t think I’m in or can tell when I’m in Awareness is what we are hearing.

Some people felt that Awareness didn’t feel different enough, so they didn’t believe they were in Awareness. Using Step 3 to acknowledge the Awareness moments, no matter how small, is important. Notice and acknowledge, this is Awareness. The key is noticing how are you different in a familiar setting. It’s not the setting, it’s how you ARE as you are in it. Notice how you are different. Use that muscle that you have to not argue with the Now. That includes Personality telling you you’re not in Awareness!

The languaging around the Body piece is not our favorite but we’ll just stick with it. The blurring of the line between my body and the rest of the world is high on the list of priorities here. We’ve tried a lot of things and we’re still chewing on this. All the things we’ve done over the years to help you change in your life has never been quite as survival-instinct confronting as it is to redefine your identity beyond your skin, your gingerbread shape, and incorporating the rest of your world like we are doing now and have never done before. Being in that space of” It’s All Me” is the marketplace without the sense of overwhelm or total responsibility for what is happening in the rest of the world is where the Survival Instinct tries to insert itself. It’s All Me is NOT “it’s all on my shoulders.”

That’s the step we’re on, to experience the physical world that you previously considered not-me as viscerally you as you currently experience your gingerbread shape. That’s the goal, and we’re looking for steps to help us achieve that goal, to blur the line between the your gingerbread shape and the rest of the world.

In referencing to not skipping the now, Personality has perceived time as a linear thing in one direction only. In Awareness, your experience does not go linearly, it goes down and in, fractally. Your experience of yourself is deepening and deepening. So when you skip a now-moment, you slaving yourself to that linear line. When you value the now in Awareness, your experience actually goes down and deeper, it’s enhanced. That’s why Fred is here. They’ve done amazing things only speaking to your Personality. Now they get to talk to your Awareness. And you get to have the inexplicable experiences. The Council is snuggled in, ready to watch that show!

So, to wrap up: do the four steps. Acknowledge that you are experiencing Awareness, and as you experience, notice that it’s Awareness collaborating with the Body. No preconceived notions. Invite the collaboration to start evidencing itself in some ways. When it does, don’t talk yourself out of it.

August 8, 2018

Two Meetings in One

This meeting was chock-full of juicy bits, from a discussion of some new ideas to Earth’s incarnational cycles and humanity’s evolution and what it means to us.

Eloheim: Our main focus of late has been talking about how the Body and Awareness interact, and what it means when you discontinue having a Personality-based experience of the Body and start having an Awareness-based one.

As we journey together in this process, a couple of things popped up for Veronica. She became aware of how we may accept the now, but only in a certain way. We make up reasons why something happened because accepting the now involves a disastrous scenario or avoiding something bad. Accepting the now; then the Personality dreams up all the good reasons for what is happening. For example: Imagine you are stuck in traffic. The habit is to resist the experience and deal with it by imagining that the delay is keeping you from being in an accident or something worse happening. Personality needs to make up a story about it rather than just being present to what is. This is a good reminder that a lot of spiritual ideas and teachings are all Personality dancing with the Personality. In our community we are not going to let ourselves duel with the Personality. The opportunity here is to engage with the moment without preconceived notions. It’s the opportunity to recognize what-is as a great gift.

With the caveat that this may not happen for everybody or you might be able to modify it or find it helpful, the second thing that happened for Veronica was a visceral experience of Personality looking at Awareness (Eloheim attempted to describe it with the help of the whiteboard). She found herself standing in Personality and being able to see across a bridge, path, canal, toward Awareness and the Field of Infinite Possibilities. She noticed that it narrowed to a point, a point not open to Awareness. The path then wavered as she tried to open up the point. She practiced keeping it open, and it turned into a real physical experience. As she kept the canal open, the difference between the gingerbread shape and the rest of the world blurred, a feeling she had never had before. This generated unexpected ways of interacting with the world as well. (Listen to the audio for a better description of this complex, hard-to-explain, brand-new experience for Veronica.)

Question: How does this relate to or where it was experienced in the energy systems? A: It was more a sense of her perception of herself, her location in space, her perception of identity. When your location changes, if you move your self identity from one place to another, the construct of you changes. It felt like a stripping away. There’s no other choice to be made other than to be present, it’s choiceless choice.

What we’re doing now is finding a way that Personality’s definition of the Body is surrendered and the Awareness’s experience of Body is explored. Veronica was exploring the Awareness’s connection to Body being visceral.

Question from John: Is there a difference in how the males and the females grasp this? A: We wouldn’t be surprised if there’s a distinct difference in how the masculine mind and the feminine mind approach this information. You process information in different ways.

Awareness is so different, but it uses all the same props; it’s how you engage with it that changes. I am different in this familiar situation is how Awareness shows up. You don’t have to choose, it just happens.

A question was asked about the inability to stop thinking. A: We wonder if you can have a parallel track, two lanes. On the left side is all your normal thinking, leaving the right side to be doing something else. I’m not going to try to stop all this thinking, it can carry on, leaving this lane free to have different experiences. I’m not engaging it, instead putting my attention on the other lane. See if that will work.

Another thing, barriers have resurfaced for Veronica. Lots of old things have been popping up, asking to be worried about, as well as some “Harry Potter” imaging of what Awareness living would be like.

Awareness living is driven by a completely different set of impulses. The driving force of Awareness is rejecting the notion of the to-do list and instead, engaging the present as deeply as possible. Do you engage do-to-get or access to the Field of Infinite Possibilities? HERE is the IS that you’re in, what are you going to do with it?

We’re at the beginning of this talk. It’s a new idea: how to inhabit a physical form in Awareness, then to experience that Awareness relating to Body, and that Body is not just your gingerbread shape but all electrons. Imagine if we had said this 10 years ago! It is not small. So, we throw something out there like this, and you go huh? And we just keep banging on it. It’s a messy, beginning meeting. It’s not like we expect anybody to get it immediately. Some people quit when it’s messy and that’s okay. We’re doing the best we can, we’re pulling out different things and seeing what sticks.

Plus, we’re doing it in the most charged and connected time you’ve ever had. You’re assaulted daily by stimulus, you’re over-engaged, you don’t get to isolate, and you don’t get measurement or the promise of a reward from a deity or an external source. And we say to you, don’t think, and you wonder, how do you survive if you don’t? This is not a small request we’re asking of you! It’s enormous and unprecedented. So, if you wonder for awhile, “Am I in Awareness?” or “I don’t know what I’m doing,” that’s completely reasonable. Yeah, it’s totally confusing and yet, wonderful. It’s the freedom of living in Awareness, and people getting to match energy with you instead of you being whipped around by their level 2 stuff, and the opportunity to create an energetic that has never been on this planet in this way. No sensei, no deity between you and the experience you’re having. We don’t even want to come between you and your evolution.

What that means is that anybody can do it. It strips away, doesn’t require other accoutrements to live in Awareness. At the end of the day in this evolutionary process, we want this just to be you. Nothing between you and this experience.

This led to a discourse on the long-term ambition for Earth and how Eloheim had to ramp up the Survival Instinct to get humans to stay on the planet. Eloheim continues: It not only affects your human-self, but your soul-self as you go through this experience. You engaged with this process because you knew it would generate significant growth for your soul. You said, “I’m going to set aside all I know as a soul and embody a human form in a free will zone, in density and duality, and I’m going to see what happens.” And down the road, I’m going to recover my infinite and immortal Awareness, and embody and experience that in physicality, rather than in the amorphous soul-self that you normally are. If that means you have to work a little bit to get in Awareness, okay. That’s the bigger picture.

Eloheim took us through the evolution of the many incarnational cycles we have experienced on this planet up to where we are now and asked us to place what we are currently doing in the vast scope of what we have already done and felt over hundreds of lifetimes. Eloheim: What we are doing is not actually not that big compared to all of them, your numerous incarnations. It’s giving you such juicy assets to your soul-self. Not only is it you as a soul, it’s you as a galactic citizen, it’s you as an emanational force. You are a gift to life. Everything you’re learning right now, your soul is using in other lifetimes, in other places. This place is an incubator for such profound evolution, and it feeds into your soul right now.

August 19, 2018

At the Gates of Disneyland

In the last meeting we drew a picture on the whiteboard and apparently, confused many of you. Part of it was because it was brand new and part of it was we were trying to verbalize something that was only visceral. We used to work out how to talk about these things with Veronica ahead of time and now that we no longer communicate with her in that way, we do it here, together.

It’s important to remember that just because Veronica experienced something one way does not mean the rest of you will do it the same way. It may or may not make any sense to you. That’s fine, step up and say, “this is where I’m at, this is where I feel stuck or not feel stuck.” Maybe even ask for help from us with it.

Once more pulling out the whiteboard, Eloheim drew what they now are calling a hallway, a T-shaped hallway, and they talked more about Veronica’s experience. This hallway gives her an instantaneous read on situations. The end of the hallway, the top of the T, is indicative of the Field of Infinite Possibilities, and how far she is down the hallway lets her know where she is in relation to the moment. Being in the top of the T has her letting go of all limitations and expectations and feeling vulnerable – all while standing in the Field of Infinite Possibilities. She’s not on solid land there. Homo spiritus is not on solid land. It’s the big unknown. A state of “I don’t know.” It just IS. Personality is not driving the show, looking for answers. You’re in Awareness. It’s choiceless choice. You’re just being here.

Awareness is not transactional, it’s experiential. So there’s no “vending machine” and far less adrenaline in Awareness. Notice and acknowledge every little bit of Awareness that you experience. Value it.

Asking for input and feedback, Eloheim then interacted with the group. Feedback helps move the teachings forward since we no longer have an agenda for each meeting.

There’s a lot of limitation that you guys experience that will no longer apply as you experience Awareness. There’s a ton of ways that you experience limitations in your day-to-day life that will fall away.

We feel like we’re standing at the gates of Disneyland, waiting for them to open, ready to show the wonders of the park to someone who has never been there before. We say, dude, you have no idea what’s going to happen! And we’re thrilled to show you.

All the teachings over the years have been to build up muscles to help keep you in Awareness when we get there. We are there. You know the teachings and the tools, and now we’re getting to use them in a different way.

Remember we told you many years ago you would move from aha to aha, bliss to bliss? Well here it is. Clarity arises out of the Field of Infinite Possibilities, and you move from aha to aha. It may not be all the time, but you are experiencing it.

Someone remarked that they were having a hard time concentrating and another said they can’t remember anything in the meetings anymore. Eloheim: That’s because we’re talking to your Awareness, and Personality is the one who does the concentrating. You’re in “I don’t know.” What if you just ARE with whatever you’re experiencing? Does that create that jeopardy within you or are you just taking it in in a different way? We can tell you’re perceiving the energetics we put out more than you used to and are not simply hearing the words.

*Sidenote from this writer: Now I get why I hear something in the meeting, go to pause the audio so I can write it up and promptly forget what they just said!! It takes me far longer to write these up than it used to!

August 22, 2018

First Awareness to Awareness Meeting

Guardians: The energy of the room feels nice and clear. Part of what you’re working on is catching when you’re in Personality, catching and then opening to more, expanding to what you want more of. Notice and expand the Awareness part.

Visionaries: Speaking of the idea of opening to the Field of Infinite Possibilities in new ways, that’s where you all are, you are hovering on the edge of it as you engage in the FACT of Awareness. “I am experiencing Awareness in this now, that is who I am now, that is how I live now.” That is fantastic.

The journey where you start to feel you’re in Awareness is where you focus now, rather than focusing on what you need to drop or limit. Awareness building on Awareness. Focus on the Awareness part by being present, connecting with the fact of experiencing Awareness becomes so important to you that that is where you put your focus. You don’t dance and dally with Personality, you just turn into Awareness and expand on that. You have Awareness present in every now, the mixture varies, grab the Awareness part and expand on it.

Eloheim: If you have some Personality and some Awareness, in the past you would focus on dealing with the fact you noticed Personality. Tonight, there’s a new opening in each of you, where you focus on and muck around in the part that experiences Awareness. This is good news that we’re able to see that energetic clearly. In every now there’s Awareness, and I don’t want to dance with Personality anymore and instead will focus on the Awareness part. This is a huge breakthrough for you.

Veronica’s reveal of her project is great. How do your gifts move in the world? How do you show up? A container for you to move in the world in new ways has to happen. It’s a way for your “Watch It Move” to move. Clarity and integrity driven by Awareness.

John then asked a question revolving around money and Eloheim talked for a long time about how the Body is responding to Awareness, and how it has the potential to dislodge you from the time continuum. One way this may show up is by you no longer trading hours for dollars.

Warrior: We are really enjoying this Awareness to Awareness conversation as we waited in the wings. It is an Awareness-milestone meeting you are having right now. Something is shifting and it’s being acknowledged through our Awareness connection to you.

As time goes on, when you review that story we told you years ago, you will get more out of it. It’s also us saying, we want to talk to your Awareness, we see it. We were trying to wake your seemingly sleeping Awareness. Now, as we speak to your Awareness, it changes our relationship from teacher or drill sergeant to comrade. We collaborate and accomplish together. We like this change. It’s a most excellent shift.

Girls: This has been a fun night! It’s a big night that’s been brewing. You have been working on it. We don’t have to remind you to love yourself, the temptation to do that is so much less. It’s a liberation from our role as well. Your Awareness is dominating this Now and there isn’t better news we can give you!

Fred: You certainly got the whole Council stirred up. We’re spending the entire meeting speaking to your Awareness. Did it feel different? It’s the beginning. We have marked it on the calendar. As we engage Awareness to Awareness we have the opportunity to delve into the Field of Infinite Possibilities. It’s not the time yet, we need you to bask in that and hold and pump up those moments of Awareness that you have. When Personality pops up, set it down. We need you to come back to us next time at least where we are ending tonight, if not even more saturated in Awareness.

Matriarch: On nights like we especially enjoy going last. We got to bask in the energy. This transition doorway is so big and beautiful and we couldn’t be more thrilled. The entire Council is abuzz.

Before the meeting, I spoke about my new project (being created with Liz and Terri) called Everyday Expertise. I will have loads more information about this coming soon. Eloheim speaks about it during the meeting as well.

2012-10-03 ~ 117 minutes

During this session, Eloheim did a mini session with each person asking two questions:

Where is the place within you that you are not allowing for transformation?
What is the thing you wish we would say to you?

The answers were so revealing and powerful. The session lasted nearly two hours and was 95% Eloheim.

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The meeting focused on giving your attention to what is new within you. Using the ladder to get out of the hole, but understanding that it may not be easy and there may be fear.

The Guardians: Go inwards. Don’t miss the opportunity available now. Grab it. Take 100% responsibility for everything in your life. Don’t think you can do things the old way and get new results. Chaos is here. You’ve been in a higher vibration, the ripples of that, your emanations, are coming back now. This requires even more consciousness, more discipline, more focus.

The Visionaries: This is a serious time frame. Take it one step at a time but state: “I want to live in the world in a new way.” Ask for insight for/about what is right here. Don’t fret !!

Eloheim: Started with the exercise: select 10 ads at random and see what they bring up in you, including underlying assumptions and messages. A simple exercise that cuts through the crap, and opens up possibilities and casts the net wide. Let go of certainty and try new things in a fun way. Get out of the corner. You don’t know anything because you’ve never been the “now” you before. Eloheim described a circle, with the new version of you being a thin sliver of the circle, maybe 10%. THAT is where you focus your attention, to the new opening, to what is different. The rest of the circle, the 90%, is the habitual you – stress, habits, judgments.

Fred: Seize the day! Grab it! Show up. Say, “I want to have what you can give me.” Say, “I won’t think that thought again, esp. the ‘I can’t’ thought.” Because you CAN. Find the toehold up the ladder, and pull up. Fred did a fun impression of a zombie, and noted that “outcome” is a poisoned vial. “I want to be in the new part of me right now.”

The Girls: Continued discussing the reality of fear in this process and noted it is not an excuse. The only reason you don’t change is that you don’t want change. “Where’s my mistaken perception of this moment?” Don’t expect easy. When you attempt to change your life, stuff will come up.

The Warrior: Talks about when he “seized the moment” by agreeing to stay with Mariana because of the fierce power of this woman, who knew her truth and stayed in her center. A centered willingness to be vulnerable – open. Be willing to see yourself in a new way. Sit in “what is true now” which is much more interesting than being in outcome. In your center, any discomfort you feel can be attended to.

The Matriarch: Noted the beauty of the “Warrior being soft AND stronger than ever.” Be in the moment.

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What’s your favorite part of being human? Eloheim asked each person that question. The answers and Eloheim’s insights really offered a new way of looking at things.

(Before the meeting, attendees were in-joy watching the Giants win the first World Series game. This inspired the Council to change their plans and instead address the subject of Joy).

Guardians: There are delights of being human. You have the opportunity to fill the empty space with joy, rather than with fear, habit or distraction.

Visionaries: Sports are a great example of what duality looks like. When your team is doing well, there is a feeling of community and oneness. But what does “losing” bring up in you? You can choose to have a non-dualistic experience in a dualistic environment. “If I cannot be in neutral observation about this, then what CAN I be here?” Choose a new relationship to the non-preferred side. Choose to incorporate both outcomes without bringing up a trigger in either direction.

Eloheim: Eloheim asked everyone at the meeting: “What’s your favorite thing about being human?”

If being in nature is one of your favorite things, and it opens your heart, then imagine yourself in nature when talking to others. If you’re feeling down, ask: “What am I choosing to witness?” When you get caught up in the day-to-day, ask what you can bring in – that you love about being human – and put your attention there. Give to yourself first. Emanation is powerful. The more emanation you offer to the world – being in your truth – the more everyone can ascend.

Looking for Oneness: First, make space for the fact that it is true. “I know I’m connected to everything else somehow.” You probably won’t feel Oneness, but acknowledge the fact of it, and deal with any fears that come up. Self-center. Second: relax into it. Let go of thinking you can know Oneness in an intellectual way. When you get a juicy taste of Oneness and connection, just be with it.

In Ascension, you’ll be more human, not less. You’ll enjoy more and feel more, because your Soul will want to experience more. Souls are very matter-of-fact. They don’t have worries. The Soul is forthright, fun and very sensual. So connect with what you feel passion about. Emanate and magnetize. Your Soul is right there, ready to connect. And when you have an experience of Oneness, understand that it is not reproducible or even explainable, but it is very real. Stop talking yourself out of things, out of what you experience. Acknowledge it. Write it down.

Homework: Ask, “Where am I standing in my way today?” Then compare it to “what’s my favorite thing about being human?” How are they the same, and how are they different? Seize the moments you have – to experience the things that you want.

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Guardians: This is chaos time, crunch time. So what do you do? You monitor yourself. You stay in the eye of the storm. You give the offering of your clarity, of your consciousness. It is all internal; you can never make a change outside of yourself. What gift will you give to this world? It is making that request of you. Are you going to contribute to the chaos or to consciousness? You have to deliberately take the reins of the horses. You can choose to be brave, courageous, forthright, centered, grounded, ready. Every moment will give you a new opportunity.

Visionaries: These last two months of 2012 are about getting rid of what you no longer need. 2013 will be about knowing the more of you but, first, you still need to clear much away. It’s discipline time. “I REFUSE to give in to unconsciousness, to linearity, to duality, to old ideas, to limitations. I refuse to be distracted by that thought again; I refuse to say ‘I can’t have.’ I refuse to believe that I have no connection to my Source.” Just refuse. If there’s static in your life, look it straight in the eye. Your desire for insight is the only thing that will take you someplace new.

Eloheim asked, “What keeps you from knowing the you that we know?” As a human, you have tons of layers, like wearing stacks of clothes, that obscures who you really are underneath. “What do you think your heaviest layer is? What gets most in the way of you knowing You?”

Some exchanges: Ways to deal with thoughts and chatter. The problem of “should”. The issue of difficulty in taking up space; not heard, not seen, not allowed. The issue of control: “What am I trying to control, and why?” The issue of “I can’t.”

How do you feel about You? In Expansion, there are no rules. The real You is bigger than any box you’ve been given.

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