Will I or won’t I?
Should I or shouldn’t I?
Could I or would I?

I’m exploring a new state of being. It has everything to do with facing this moment with nothing, and everything to do with being in this moment with everything.

It’s not that easy to describe.


It’s so easy to describe that video. I’m sure if I read some of the comments, folks would give all sorts of great examples.

“It’s fake!”
“What luck!”

Internet Rule #1 – Read comments with caution (especially on YouTube).

Anonymity doesn’t always bring out the constructive part of humanity.

When I watch the video, it reminds me of IDKWGO (I don’t know what’s going on) – the extreme version.

In the blink of an eye, the rider goes from one state (the motorcycle) to another (the car roof). I imagine that even the most talented gymnast would be challenged to make that transition on purpose and with foreknowledge. Yet, somehow, the rider does it.

I’m doing the energetic version of this.

I’m declining the preconceived idea of what is now or next or needed and abiding in the revealed.

I really don’t like having to depend on woo woo-ish words to describe something.

How about this?

I’m not going to assume I know.

I’m not going to assume that I have any way to know.

I’m exploring what happens when I discard the “knowing” that presents itself and intead… how to say it. It’s like trying to remember a dream. The way of putting it into words is easily lost.

I feel it most strongly when I put in ear plugs, cover my eyes, and lay down.

I see what thoughts and feelings arise and I set them aside.

The picture I get now, as I reflect on the process of the last couple of hours, is that I’m standing in front of a full length mirror and women keep holding dresses up in front of me. I keep saying, “No” and another dress is lifted in place of the one just rejected. Each dress is an idea of myself or a role or an obligation. With each “No” I get closer to the unadorned truth of me.

The truth that abides even when upside down, flying through the air, with no idea where I will land.

Reading all that makes it sound like I’m only getting into the moment. That’s a worthy ambition and it surely is having that effect.

It’s not just that though.

I’m not simply quieting the hamster-wheel mind of life concerns. In fact, I wasn’t needing to do that at all. Eloheim has taught me well and Level 6 is a common state of everyday being.

It’s Level 7 that I’m exploring and it seems to look like:

I’m no longer engaging with preconceived notions of existing.

WTF does that even mean?

I will be sure to let you know as I know.

Right now, it means walking to the Post Office.


Read part one of Life with Eloheim here
Part 2 here
Part 3 here
Part 4 here
Part 5 here
Part 6 here
Part 7 here
Part 8 here
Part 9 here